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Friday, December 18, 2009
On the consequences of having friends

I don’t exactly why but it hurts... not because of what they did. In fact there should be no problem at all... it is called “friendship”, no string attached!
Sometime I think I deserve to be treated the way I treat them... hmmm, maybe I’m asking for too much, maybe I’m wrong...thinking about past, I wasn't perfect, but at least I tried. I hope they did the same...
Just remembering the old far idea of “Life is much more bearable when you are alone”. It doesn't look that far now...
It starts with the pain. I try to reason with it. But it doesn't work since there is no possible reasoning in my mind. Then it is remorse, about me and my choices, but I remember there is nothing to be sorry about. Next, it is anger, punching in the wall style. And then it is pain again...

I don't know why but it hurts...


PS. After 8 hours it doesn't hurt anymore. Thank god for obliviousness. It isn't a bug in humans design, it's a fantastic feature!
نوشته شده در 3:14 AM توسط MVB.